Wow.
Here’s the thing. I’ve been tossing around a lot of things. And for some strange reason I’m doing okay. Perhaps it hasn’t really sunk in. Parts of it has, like last Tuesday when I walked to school to bring my brother the camera and I think I saw my teacher leave for clinical. Yeah. That was hard. However, in general I’m doing okay.
Since I’m looking at a variety of options though, and because this is in reality a story about my travels through nursing school, I can’t write much of my real life here. As such, I started something new: One Day in Words
So far as anyone who reads this story, this is the epilogue of what happened after this. I will try posting small updates here, but for the most part, I’ll say where I went after over there.
On a different hand, I am hoping to fill in the gaps about what actually happened. It’s really hard for a lot of reasons. Look at it this way. I’m having a nice conversation with someone about everything and he, knowing I was in nursing, asks me when I’m graduating. Since he asked me this earlier, I have to tell him the truth.
“I failed out of nursing.”
Awkward silence. “Oh. I’m sorry.” More awkward silence.
Yeah. Totally not fun. Or we have the situation where an old nursing comrade of mine comes up to me, since I”m studying in the library.
“So, Abigail, what are you doing now?”
“Well, right now I’m writing a blog post. But I should be writing a paper.”
“No, I mean, are you going to apply back?”
Not fun either.
Here’s what I do know:
I’m not going back into nursing. I asked my teacher point blank if I should, and she said that’s probably not the best option for me.
I’m doing okay. It’s not an act. I’m happy. I even said last night I’m way too happy for my own good. Maybe this is because I’m suddenly basically stress free. Maybe it’s because I didn’t really want to be a nurse. I don’t know. But I’m okay.
I’m not sure what happened. I get that question a lot. “Well, how did you fail clinicals?” Truth is: I’m not sure.
I am going to hopefully explore how I failed clinicals over the next month or so. I will be trying to post backdated messages to better illustrate what happened. Maybe I failed nursing, but maybe through this, you won’t.
So what is the wow for? The wow is that in the past week, I have had 41 hits on the concept of being a 3.75 GPA student and still failing. That is wow.
On a side note, if you want something to read of mine, either check out Always a Writer, where I discuss writing, my travels through writing, or how to write. And if you want to know what happened to me, look at One Day in Words.
And good luck to you on your adventure into nursing.
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